Pre-COVID-19, I was scouring the internet to find the perfect apartment for me and a friend in Philadelphia. I was excited to be closer to the city, able to be more easily involved in the art happening there. The Greater Philadelphia Acting Auditions were coming up and I had two monologues picked out that I loved. I was preparing to begin rehearsals for my next show.

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And then, all of a sudden, I wasn't doing those things anymore. Everything stopped - my next performance cancelled its run, my cafe closed up, and my income became nonexistent which meant no more apartment hunting. The things driving me toward a future I planned out for myself are now not possible. Now, I had a stew of emotions mixing in my heart and mind, feeling both like a failure and immense helplessness. 

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I am of course not alone in this. I acknowledge all of the people affected by this pandemic and I am grateful for my health and wellness during this time. And now, with no more going to work and lots more sitting still, I have begun to found new purposes and opportunities for myself. As the world changes, my worldview changes with it, and I now move toward the exciting unknown.